SNS Trauma, Trauma, TRAUMA!!

Another 2018 update.. Hiii~ 네가 고민 하나 있는데,, and i think this is the only place i can share it.. My precious, blog.. 😘 sis bukan apa, tpi sis trauma betul sma sns nii tw.. Byk benda seram jadi. Mcam2 kita boleh dituduh. Ada yg bodoh x fikir perasaan org lain, ada yg tuduh2 sembarang, lakinya lhh hilang.. Kw fikir aq heran kh dgn laki muu tu?? Ambil!! Bukan aq yg kejar laki muu, laki mu yg cari2 aq bodoh.. Dasar budak ndak matang!! Kw fikir aq heran kh sama budak mcam kw tuu, kuat jeles, jeles x kena tempat. Klu bgtu lhh perangai muu, bagus kw ikat laki muu d rumah.. Kw x tw pun apa dia buat, dia d mna.. Apa2 kw tnya jgak aq.. Kw fikir aq nii kaunter pertanyaan kh??! Rm5/question!!! Enak jak d suap terus.. Kw tanya sndri sma laki muu, aq kacau kh dia?? Apa aq ada buat sma dia?? Aq anggap kawan jak tuu, kadang aq x pandang pun, aq x layan pun dia lhh.. Klu bukan kerja, ndak aq ada urusan sma dia gilaa!! Sakit pula hati sis.. Bkan kw jak aa mw fikir, byk lagi benda lain aq mw fikir!! Org gila d facebook tuu lagi!! Yg kw menambah lagi knp?? Kan x pasal2 kw yg jdi mangsa.. Sabar lhh yaa dek..

Election day is over!! This was going to be my first and last jadi agen d tempat mengudi and agen kira undi.. Seriously penat and bodoh lebih2 lagi klu kw kena jaga 545 voters from 8 to 5, then sambung kira undi from 5 to 8 ALONE!! IMAGINE ALL THOSE HOURS SITTING IN A PLACE, AND NOT EATING ANYTHING EXCEPT SWEET!!! Hello!! Gila kh?? Lain kali mmg mw jaga tuu benda.. Jgn mw d bodoh2 mcam smlm.. Ndak menipu teruk nyaa..  Lagi ndak puas hati, gambar yg dia ambil utk letak d pas tuu. I look freaking fat!! And they were like "simpan lhh tuu, bikin kenang-kenangan" serious menyampah.. Jaga angle kalau ambil gambar!!

Apa lhh berapa hari nii, byk sumber bgi stres? I got a lot in my head already, please lhh... Penat!! X lama lagi puasa.. X tw lhh nii,, jgn jak aq lemah nnt sudah.. Tempat kerja lagi... Tolong lhhh. Bukan aq jak yg kerja x sana!! Bilang kerjasama!! Klu aq jak sndri mcam mna mw kerjasama??? Kw fikir ringan khh barang2 tuu?? Tw lhh aa magnae, bukan aq bodoh.. Aq jak malas mw abut!! Sbb apa?? Sia2 jak bercakap, buang air liur!! Yg seorang tuu lagi masalah.. D suruh buat, BUAT LAAA!! KW FIKIR KW PUNYA KEDAI KH?? KW PUN PEKERJA, D BAYAR GAJI!! X payah mw memilih kerja.. Klu mw memilih, b'henti satu kalii. X payah menyusahkan.. Klu senior dari aq, kw ada pengalam brapa tahun kerja, spatutnya aq belajar sma kw, bukan kw belajar sma aq.. Klu kw x tw, lagi lhh aq x tw.. Asal kw  yg buat salah aq yg kena, aq yg mw kasih settle. Kw fikir kw siapa??! BUAT SENDIRI!! Semua mw aq yg buat, ndak da untung q, penat ada lhh.. Tambah penat jak!!

Haish!! Semua lhh bikin menyampah.. Sampai sakit kepala q. Menyusah kan jak dorang tuu.. Sudah lhh aq x boleh makan panadol, disitu lhh dorang bikin sakit kepala.. Klu aq x fikir esk kerja,, smlm lgi aq mkan panadol.. Arrrgghhh!!! Sakit nyaa hati q.. Mw cari hobi baru nii, supaya boleh lepas tension. Penat tw kh??! Penat.. Sampai mw nangis pun x boleh.. Penat.. X tw d mna mw d luah smua prasaan nii.. Hmmm..

K byee.. Huhuhu

`mewb

Another Year

Assalamualaikum, 안녕!! 2018 already and here I am like a potato. Hmmm. Never imagine I'm comparing myself with a potato. Hahahaha.. Another new year has come (its Feb of 2018 ) and I dont literally know what is happening with my life. A lot of small stories here and there.

My job is kindda ok right now. But, some of the freaking bastard doesn't give their co-operation during work which sucks. Just who the f they think they are, not respecting their seniors?! I've work there longer then you freak, listen to me u freak!! They just bring the bad inside of me who was soundly resting. Hmmm~

Guess what, I've deleted my WeChat acc earlier this year. /celebrating/ I don't think I can use that media anymore since a freak insult me there. Stupid freak. He's the one who chat me the first then he just throw this tantrum on me and block me. What a stupid freak. 

I Think I'm BULLIED

Assalamualaikum and good midnight. Its literally 12.30 am right now and I have to go to work tomorrow morning. I've been kind of weird these days(its kindda ordinary actually). I don't know it's some kind of stress or what. But even i can feel that I'm being weird. It's not just me, people around me, even my boss said so. Luckily though he's good enough to just laugh it off. hahaha.. It's been about 4-5 months since I've started working. I'm a cute kindda crazy salesgirl of a hardware shop near my house. I got that job thanks to my dad, who accidently knew that they need a helping hand there at the hardware and I got lucky that they accept me eventhough I know nothing about a hardware stuff. I've learned a lot this few months that my boss and even the clerk there would praise me telling me that i'm a fast leaner though I'm kindda crazy. Seriously, my boss told me that there's something wrong with me. And I think I know why I'm behaving this way.

When I started working there, there's a "boy", I don't even know how old(older than me of course) would always made me do his work. He would always ask me to "help" his work. And you know in a hardware, the hard works are for the boys to do and the girls would just be the cute sales girl. lol Since he would always ask me to "help" him, I guess you would know what he would ask me. Yep!! He would ALWAYS ask me to help him carry some heavy stuff. And there's a day where we were asked to re-arranged and check the stock, there were like many boxes around we have to move around, when he saw me carry a kindda heavy box, instead of helping me, he took a lot lighter box to move. Can you freaking see how "gentleman" he is??!

That's not the only case!! He also like to hit my forehead. Maybe you don't think it's a big deal, but it is to me.. i have a sensitive skin people!! moreover working at the hardware made it worse, with the dust as thick as whatever, I have to stand under strong sunlight(I don't freaking need photosynthesis) etc btw, like I said he like to hit my forehead and i hate it so much. When I told him to not do it, he would ignore me and guess what, he hit me after me saying that, fxck him!! hahaha. There's one time when I was really stress and he made it worse, and I seriously cried there. I fxcking cried in front of them and they would just laugh it of.. Guess what, fxck them!! hahahaha.. Since I'm the maknae there, there's nothing I can do. hmmmm.

Back to me being weird, I think I'm weird since then. In the deepest of my mind I fell like I'm bullied. And I know it's not just my feeling but I AM BULLIED!! Since then, I easily get scared of people especially when people quietly come beside me. Even my boss would ask what's with me getting scared easily and i would just laugh it off. hahahahaha..

I've been planning to update since last month but you know, someone inside me would ask me to do it later, and finally here I'm after a few weeks since my plan. hahahah. There's a secret I'm hiding.. Actually, he "boy" who bullied me were fired last month. hehehehe.. Eventhough he was fired I'm still afraid. I know I'm not terribly bullied but I just can't forget about it. Even little thing make me scare. How to overcome this?? OMG!!

Kbye!! I'm just ending my update here this absurb. Hahahaha.. Toodles, Assalamualaikum.

#mewb